it's the thought that counts

Luna turned the big 4 today. Somewhat anti-climactic for her, as I expcted it to be. Just like last year, Luna has a hard time understanding what a birthday without the party. So when she went to sleep last night I reminded her that tomorrow was going to be her birthday , but Saturday was going to be her birthday party. Ok she said.
And so this morning she got up and we all wished her a happy birthday and she seemed mildly confused and then I brought her to school in a craze because Pablo woke up sick as a dog and couldnt do the kid routine so i was running around trying to get them ready and drop them off befor going to work late, To make a long story short I drop her off at school, and she looks like a raggedy mess, with no special birthday outfit or bows in her hair or even lunch in her bag. Not that she seems to notice.
But
I'm at work all morning thinkin bout what a bad mommy I am and how could i send her to school like a scrub when it's the only time she's going to turn 4 ever and i need to get her some lunch somehow
and so
I jet out of work at noon
and cab across town
run into a pizzeria
grab her a cold slice and then scavenge through a bodega
thinkin bout
what could I possibly bring to her class to hook it up birthday style
and damnit why didnt i bake her cupcakes the night before or something like all the other mommies out there
( i was takin care of sick household the night before, but anyway)
so thats when I see an entenmann's chocolate cake
for $4.69
just like the kind my dad would sometimes buy at the Entenmanns outlet by my house as a kid. the place where they sold three day old cakes for a dollar.
and i ran to her school, stormed up the stairs, had her teacher tell me "it's 12:15. lunch started at 12:00. she's starving."
i scowl and apologize and luna seems so delighted to see me
and i just love that
next comes hiding in the corner and lighting the cuatro candles
and her grinning and bashful all at once
we sang happy birthday
and gave out the chocolate topped yums
it was good
Then Luna asked - but where are all the goody bags?????