intense
determined
focused
chill
easy
words i hear over and over about my cub, not yet lion, more turtle with his too small head for bigger body
crawling along pine planks
i'd add mama's boy to the list
along with
sweet.
together we watched the brazil japan game at ZumScheider
fiercely clutching my finger when the barheads cheered, Luks looked to me with a quizzical expression
whats all the noise?
don't worry baby, just try and fall asleep
metaphysical communication
works
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Monday, June 19, 2006
samsara
luna has this incredible vision of her life's course..
basically she's been talking about her future journey over the past few months as though it is fluid and not linear . She'll say things like "when i get smaller I'll crawl" or "when you're a baby [to me] you'll be in the stroller" or better yet, "when I 'm a boy I'll have a penis"...I look at her and nod and smile when she says these things and I wonder is she alluding to some pat life expeience or memory on these pronouncements???
she's only three years out my belly, much closer to the Source than I am so that's gotta count for a whole lot of unadultered wisdom...She will have a penis when she's a boy, I'm just not sure when that'll be although Luna seems to be sure it will happen
the past five months with Lukas in our lives have been huge for my Serenita. her english has just skyrocketed- her teachers can't believe we don't speak it to her at home...and boy does she love to play teacher. reading her books aloud to an imaginary audience, stopping way too often to reprimand the class to pay attention, sit straight and be still. the indoctrination has begun
she's been my incredibly patient sidekick through these months- I can count on her to remember where I put my keys, bring me my purse, watch Luaks so he doesn't roll off the couch..
speeding a block ahead of me on the scooter I see her taste freedom in her hair, it comes out her fingers...
the family is the reocurring image in her figures- it used to be just faces but now we all have bodiesand hair, next to her signature L
one mommy friend said she could see luna as a healing arts therapist when she's older. wouldnt be bad to have a masseuse in the fam, her teacher says she'll be a journalist, but luna says (unprompted) when she's big she's gonna be a teacher
and that was Not my idea
basically she's been talking about her future journey over the past few months as though it is fluid and not linear . She'll say things like "when i get smaller I'll crawl" or "when you're a baby [to me] you'll be in the stroller" or better yet, "when I 'm a boy I'll have a penis"...I look at her and nod and smile when she says these things and I wonder is she alluding to some pat life expeience or memory on these pronouncements???
she's only three years out my belly, much closer to the Source than I am so that's gotta count for a whole lot of unadultered wisdom...She will have a penis when she's a boy, I'm just not sure when that'll be although Luna seems to be sure it will happen
the past five months with Lukas in our lives have been huge for my Serenita. her english has just skyrocketed- her teachers can't believe we don't speak it to her at home...and boy does she love to play teacher. reading her books aloud to an imaginary audience, stopping way too often to reprimand the class to pay attention, sit straight and be still. the indoctrination has begun
she's been my incredibly patient sidekick through these months- I can count on her to remember where I put my keys, bring me my purse, watch Luaks so he doesn't roll off the couch..
speeding a block ahead of me on the scooter I see her taste freedom in her hair, it comes out her fingers...
the family is the reocurring image in her figures- it used to be just faces but now we all have bodiesand hair, next to her signature L
one mommy friend said she could see luna as a healing arts therapist when she's older. wouldnt be bad to have a masseuse in the fam, her teacher says she'll be a journalist, but luna says (unprompted) when she's big she's gonna be a teacher
and that was Not my idea
outta my system
I better start posting before this blog gets cancelled or something
so much has happened this month that it really has felt too hard to write
mostly its the fact that ive been here alone with the babies while pablo is in germany so thats been challenging
to tell the tuth lukas is really just as chill as could be
its just the compression of not getting a break, or having downtime that builds up
hes got a great temperament and is getting so strong its incredible
but he's still sleeping really poorly through the night and 5 months of not more than three hours at a stretch is getting to me
by 9 pm by patience is super thibn so the best thing i can do for them is get them to bed as early as possible
;)
but its all good
this too shall pass
and now onto more upbeat posts
so much has happened this month that it really has felt too hard to write
mostly its the fact that ive been here alone with the babies while pablo is in germany so thats been challenging
to tell the tuth lukas is really just as chill as could be
its just the compression of not getting a break, or having downtime that builds up
hes got a great temperament and is getting so strong its incredible
but he's still sleeping really poorly through the night and 5 months of not more than three hours at a stretch is getting to me
by 9 pm by patience is super thibn so the best thing i can do for them is get them to bed as early as possible
;)
but its all good
this too shall pass
and now onto more upbeat posts
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